I made this video as a little reminder to myself but also because these are some of what as I use when I'm having a hard day. Somedays are better than others but when it's difficult I try to practice these. It's not easy especially when feeling down or full of anxiety. I just start at the top and remember that I'll be ok if I just give myself a chance. Thought I would share and hope they help you. 

Cause and Effect

I have had trauma and this article rings a lot for me. I have been rapped, I was bulemic and anorexic for 11 years, I lost all my hair from a chemical burn. Luckily it has grown somewhat back to what it was. Not as thick and the hair cuticle was damaged. I have been in abusive relationships, verbal, physical and sexual. All these things and occurances not to mention I had an alcohol problem for awhile I believe contributed to the issues I face today. 

I'm not social as I used to be at all. I used to go out everywhere and have a good time. In college I didn't have a care in the world except for making grades. I still then did my own thing for the most part. I would go out to eat, go to the movies, go dancing at the clubs, swim and scate at the beach, you name it, I was doing all on my own and sometimes with friends. I would run at least three times a week about five miles and then go swimming. No time for depression. Just school, homework, work or play. 

I wish that were today. Now I suffer from PTSD, depression, anxiety, and Schizophrenia. Schizophrenia didn't happen till about 43 years of age. It's weird too because I started losing my eye sight at 40 and stopped having a period at 41. I still haven't had a period and I'm 47. Doctors say its just pre menopause but who knows. Just weird all of it happening one right after the other. 

Luckily, I had my daughter at 30 so I didn't miss out on motherhood. 

Im lucky I have this blog because it really helps me. Being able to express myself constructively is important. Hopefully I'm helping someone else realize they are not alone too. 

This article below is a good read. 

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Check it out the Olympics!

Click here to see theTokoyo Olympics highligts on Wtop. I put it here because I just love the Olympics and think everybody should know what's happening. 

Summer Olympics Highligts

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