Stressful Times

This is all too real for me.

There has been so many times when I have felt like this. Sometimes they would be so loud that I would be on the floor with my hand over my head screaming to ask to make them be quiet. I would take long walks and just talk to myself. I would be gone for hours but it helped to relieve the volume. If that makes any sense. It almost seems as if you can't keep up or your brain has estranged itself from you. Sometimes they say the meanest things and the lies that it tells you. I do have to admit the voices do tell you do certain things. Depending on the situation. I guess it's like you coming up with a good idea. So I can see why the doctors would ask the questions they do. If your brain is telling you certain things about others or yourself it can be very stressful because they come in different voices sometimes to match people you actually know. I actually have barricaded myself in the bathroom and my friends had to call the police to get me out.